{"id":138,"date":"2020-04-13T11:33:44","date_gmt":"2020-04-13T11:33:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/?p=138"},"modified":"2020-04-13T11:36:46","modified_gmt":"2020-04-13T11:36:46","slug":"meeting-my-ownself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/yoga\/meeting-my-ownself\/","title":{"rendered":"MEETING MYSELF"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div id=\"ez-toc-container\" class=\"ez-toc-v2_0_76 counter-hierarchy ez-toc-counter ez-toc-grey ez-toc-container-direction\">\n<p class=\"ez-toc-title\" style=\"cursor:inherit\">Table of Contents<\/p>\n<label for=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a04506acbc84\" class=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-label\"><span class=\"\"><span class=\"eztoc-hide\" style=\"display:none;\">Toggle<\/span><span class=\"ez-toc-icon-toggle-span\"><svg style=\"fill: #999;color:#999\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" class=\"list-377408\" width=\"20px\" height=\"20px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" fill=\"none\"><path d=\"M6 6H4v2h2V6zm14 0H8v2h12V6zM4 11h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2zM4 16h2v2H4v-2zm16 0H8v2h12v-2z\" fill=\"currentColor\"><\/path><\/svg><svg style=\"fill: #999;color:#999\" class=\"arrow-unsorted-368013\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\" width=\"10px\" height=\"10px\" viewBox=\"0 0 24 24\" version=\"1.2\" baseProfile=\"tiny\"><path d=\"M18.2 9.3l-6.2-6.3-6.2 6.3c-.2.2-.3.4-.3.7s.1.5.3.7c.2.2.4.3.7.3h11c.3 0 .5-.1.7-.3.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7zM5.8 14.7l6.2 6.3 6.2-6.3c.2-.2.3-.5.3-.7s-.1-.5-.3-.7c-.2-.2-.4-.3-.7-.3h-11c-.3 0-.5.1-.7.3-.2.2-.3.5-.3.7s.1.5.3.7z\"\/><\/svg><\/span><\/span><\/label><input type=\"checkbox\"  id=\"ez-toc-cssicon-toggle-item-6a04506acbc84\"  aria-label=\"Toggle\" \/><nav><ul class='ez-toc-list ez-toc-list-level-1 ' ><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-1\" href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/yoga\/meeting-my-ownself\/#MEETING_MYSELF_by_%E2%80%9CAatmanum%E2%80%9D\" >MEETING MYSELF  by   &#8220;Aatmanum&#8221;<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-2\" href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/yoga\/meeting-my-ownself\/#He_made_me_meet_myself\" >He made me meet myself<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-3\" href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/yoga\/meeting-my-ownself\/#%E2%80%9CI_am_Braham_I_am_enough%E2%80%9C\" >&#8220;I am Braham!! I am enough!!&#8220;<\/a><\/li><li class='ez-toc-page-1 ez-toc-heading-level-2'><a class=\"ez-toc-link ez-toc-heading-4\" href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/yoga\/meeting-my-ownself\/#Yogasth_Vidya_Rishikesh\" >Yogasth Vidya Rishikesh<\/a><\/li><\/ul><\/nav><\/div>\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"MEETING_MYSELF_by_%E2%80%9CAatmanum%E2%80%9D\"><\/span><strong><em>MEETING MYSELF<\/em><\/strong>  by   &#8220;Aatmanum&#8221;<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p><em><strong>this blog is written by&#8221; Aatmanum&#8221; who went through the wonderful experience<\/strong><\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Not\nmuch time has passed, when I used to witness myself as a VICTIM!! <em>Victim of situations, victim of betrayal,\nvictim of emotional abuse, victim of lost identity!<\/em> I was indeed a mess of\nbroken dreams, negative thoughts, befuddled emotions and toppled actions, with\nnowhere to go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Who\nwas I?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>So lost!! So unsure!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Indifference and ignorance were all I\nwore!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-1024x576.jpg\" alt=\"MEETING MYSELF\" class=\"wp-image-129\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-1024x576.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-600x338.jpg 600w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-300x169.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-768x432.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018-1536x864.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/event-pg-reiki-2018.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption>MEETING MYSELF<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"He_made_me_meet_myself\"><\/span> <strong>He made me meet myself<\/strong> <span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>However,\none fine day, fortunately enough, I met Guruji, which was proven to be the\nturning point in my life. He was a ray of hope, amidst the darkness I was\nwandering and drowning into. <strong>He made me\nmeet myself.<\/strong> He showed me the ways that lead me to my true self. Every\nsingle meeting with him cleared the haziness and decluttered my thoughts. He\ngave me an insight into who I am, what I really want, where I am coming from\nand where I am intending to go.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Then, came an Angel!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Looking at me, he smiled!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cBechain\u201d is what you are, my child!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Could I be more agreeing with him??<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Naah!! Since I was fighting, what he\ncalled, an inner-war!!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yes,\nmy Angel was right. Every time unconsciously, I was relating myself to other\npeople, focusing on their view about me, living my life their way, trying to\nfix them instead of myself. Ignoring my own strengths, I was comparing myself\nto others. I was living for them and not for myself, I was letting them control\nmy emotions and dictate my life. I was victimizing myself and was so scared to\ntake the accountability of my actions. I was berating and criticizing myself\nand was totally functioning on the self-loathing mode.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Holding my hand lovingly and guiding me\nthrough,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Angel kept telling me, \u201cIt is right there\ninside you!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cNa\u00efve that you are, I am waiting for the\ntime you\u2018ll be able to see from afar!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"%E2%80%9CI_am_Braham_I_am_enough%E2%80%9C\"><\/span><em>  &#8220;I am Braham!! I am enough!!<\/em>&#8220;<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Time\nelapsed, Guruji taught me more about myself and cleared every single doubt I\nturn towards him with. He helped me see my potentials as well as weaknesses,\nmaking me realize, <em>\u201dI am Braham!! I am\nenough!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Recently,\nGuruji asked and guided me to face my higher\/ real self; my soul, initially, I\nwas a little scared to do. But the trust I had on my Angel and the self\nconfidence he helped me inculcate in myself, inspired me to jumped in for the\nexperience.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cMeet her!! This is the Real YOU\u201d, said\nangel one day!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Skeptical a bit, I met HER (Oh! As if I\nhad any other way!!)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Looking closely and thoughtfully, the\nREAL ME trolled..<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cBounding yourself!&#8230;So much afraid you\nare of being Controlled??!!!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Shocked by the realization, there I was,\nsitting curled up and fist-balled!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Slowly I accepted what my soul was trying\nto tell me!!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Moving me from victim\u2019s position,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>And seconding my soul,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Said my angel, \u201dhaven\u2019t I been telling\nyou all along?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>\u201cMy child, its Self-treason.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-1024x576.jpg\" alt=\"MEETING MYSELF\" class=\"wp-image-127\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-1024x576.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-600x338.jpg 600w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-300x169.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-768x432.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910-1536x864.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/03\/1541910.jpg 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption>MEETING MYSELF<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Guruji helped me recognize my fears and\nlimitations that I am consciously and unconsciously carrying with myself as a\nbaggage. He taught me to look beyond those fears and break all the boundaries\nthat are impeding me from reaching my goals.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Guided by my soul and holding Angel\u2019s\nhand, yet again!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I gathered all my fears and threw them in\na deep, far-away drain!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Fire!! Fire of self confidence! Fire of\nself knowledge! Fire of wisdom! ignited<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Relieving me of all the pain!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Never had I ever thought,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Black could be so liberating and fire\ncould be so secure to be in\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Colorful world was all I was thriving to\nlive-in\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Not realizing, it has always been there\u2026.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>The Black, which I was so afraid to face\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>was my REAL-SELF waiting for me to become\naware!!!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>They asked, \u201cWhy black? Don\u2019t you know\nit\u2019s the color of mourning and death?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Smiling, I said, \u201cYes!! And you know what\ndied\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>MY NEGATIVE SELF!\u201d (took its last breath)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That day I promised myself to always live my life with a deeper sense of purpose and in alignment with my soul. The destination might still be hazy and far away, but I pledge to enjoy the entire journey until I reach there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"500\" height=\"312\" src=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/kundalini-yoga-500x500-1.jpg\" alt=\"MEETING MYSELF\" class=\"wp-image-70\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/kundalini-yoga-500x500-1.jpg 500w, https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/kundalini-yoga-500x500-1-300x187.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><figcaption>MEETING MYSELF<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"has-text-align-center wp-block-heading\"><span class=\"ez-toc-section\" id=\"Yogasth_Vidya_Rishikesh\"><\/span>             Yogasth Vidya Rishikesh<span class=\"ez-toc-section-end\"><\/span><\/h2>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote has-text-align-center is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/healing.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\"><em>Reiki in Rishikesh<\/em><\/a><\/strong><\/p><p><strong><em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/course.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\">Past Life Regression in Rishikesh<\/a><\/em><\/strong><\/p><p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/course.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\"><em><strong>Deeksha in Rishikesh<\/strong><\/em><\/a><\/p><p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/yoga-meditation.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\"><strong><em>Meditation in Rishikesh<\/em><\/strong><\/a><\/p><p><strong><em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/course.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\">kriya kundalini Yoga in Rishikesh<\/a><\/em><\/strong><\/p><p><strong><em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.yogasthvidyarishikesh.com\/life-coaching.php\" class=\"rank-math-link\">Life Coaching in Rishikesh<\/a><\/em><\/strong><\/p><p><strong><em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.devaeternalyoga.com\/\" class=\"rank-math-link\">Deva Eternal Yoga<\/a><\/em><\/strong><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>MEETING MYSELF by &#8220;Aatmanum&#8221; this blog is written by&#8221; Aatmanum&#8221; who went through the wonderful experience Not much time has passed, when I used to witness myself as a VICTIM!! Victim of situations, victim of betrayal, victim of emotional abuse, victim of lost identity! 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